Shame. It grips our lives more than you think. It shapes the things we avoid - avoid to do something, to say something (to someone, or just thinking out loud), to go some place.
Shame could have been caused by something you did, voluntarily or involuntarily, or something that happened to you that was out of your control.
Shame keeps you in the dark, keeps you from enjoying life.
Shame causes doubt, causes fear, causes depression.
Shame makes you feel exposed -- everyone knows your wrong. It is a thick, black veil -- thicker than a Saudi woman's veil -- that you wish you wore 24/7. You wish you could hide in plain sight.
Shame keeps you from seeking help; it makes you think you're alone. It makes you feel unaccepted.
How does one get rid of shame? Admit the wrong? Yes. Ask for forgiveness? Yes. What if the person won't forgive? God will. When all else fails, He's there. You may not know it, feel Him there, or even believe it, but He's there. He loves us too much to see us down & out. I am feeling every bit of shame as I write this. I'll be honest: I've lost much of my faith. It comes back here and there, but it's not constant. But all really one needs is that mustard seed to move that doubt of God accepting us through His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ. Most of us believers struggle with their emotions when Satan throws bad situation and circumstances are thrown at us. Keep fighting the good fight of faith.
I ask for your prayers as I go through this trialing time.